Originally written on November 26, 2009
“It feels like Christmas!” I whispered.
Waking up this morning made my heart beat a little faster. I rolled over to see the response to my sleepy-eyed statement. A sly little grin was situated on my sweet boyfriend’s face. He was seeing the same thing on me.
We both knew exactly why this Thanksgiving morning felt a little different. Why the anticipation of a new gift was hanging in the air like fairy-tale dreams. Why we were both oozing happiness as we cuddled in bed.
Today was the day.
The day that we would find out if our little baby, cuddling between us, was a little boy or a little girl. And the surprise was finally going to be revealed. The only difference here is that the grand prize is not a SUV with a giant red bow or a kitchenette set….it’s the determination for the rest of our lives.
Will we be those parents who are driving to the football field or cheerleading practice on Saturday? Will we be practicing tea parties or playing GI Joes? Will I forever be hunting for polka-dot sparkly dress up highheels or shopping for toys that have strange names like Pokimon or Bakugon? This one day was going to determine how our lives were going to take shape. It is the first giant step in our little family. And we both knew that hearing the results surrounded by some of our loved ones, on the day dedicated to having gratitude for the gifts in our lives, from the mouth of a young child was going to be nothing less than perfection.
I don’t even know how to wrap my brain around the fact that after today Moto will have a gender and a name. A real name. And the gender? My brain won’t sit still….it’s like my thinking organ is headbanging inside my skull trying to figure it all out. My first inclination is that the baby is a boy. But then I waver. And the dreams of a little girl come flooding in. But then the blue waters fight back. Back and forth it goes until my brain and my heart feel completely tie-dyed, a wash of blue and pink. It’s the most delicious taste of anticipation that I have ever felt. Better than all the turkey, stuffing and gravy in the world. It is a beautiful day. Better than Christmas. Better than shopping. Better than all the other gifts I could have ever gotten.
Oh how I can’t wait to have the sweet satisfaction of calling my baby by name. And the spilling over of my heart as I hear the name from my Jeremy’s lips. I can’t imagine falling in love even more with this man and at the same time feeling the arms of happiness wrap around me as we realize the shape of our little family. The very thought has me right where I need to be on Thanksgiving day….on my knees tearfully thanking God for his amazing gifts.
Please tell us!! I can barely stand it! I remember finding out we were having a boy when we were both so SURE it was a little girl. We had a name picked out and everything. And then to see it on the screen dancing there inside me – it was the most amazing thing in the world – it had an identity, it was a little boy :-)!!
Ok. So I have only refreshed your blog about – oh – 5,000 times today. But this post – albeit driving me crazy with suspense – was heartstoppingly beautiful. You make me understand what it feels like to be genuinely happy for a complete stranger 🙂
BAAAHHHH!!!! What is it?!?!?! Boy or girl!!!!
Can’t. Handle. The. Suspense!
tease. 🙂
Woah! I just reread twice. What gender? Tell me! 🙂
Oh come on, you can’t just leave us hanging like that?! 🙂
I can’t wait to read more about this exciting adventure! My husband and I are wavering back and forth about finding out the sex of our baby… luckily we have about 8 weeks to go until our ultrasound!
so evil!!! 😛
Stinker! ;-P LOL
well, at least the baby will have an awesome room no matter which it is!
That was so sweet, Katie! That’s exactly how you should be feeling! I’m glad. I am not glad that you didn’t include the revealing in this post because I’m going to go crazy!
Blue or Pink?! Blue or Pink?!
The anticipation is killing me!!! 🙂 I can’t wait!!
I am pregnant with my first and have been trying to persuade my husband that we should wait to find out until we are in the delivery room…but after reading this…I now want to find out early…the suspense is killing me…and you don’t want to kill a fellow pregnant blogger…tell us soon!
I read and re-read! Too much suspense!
I think it’s a boy. Am I right? : )
Please tell us SOON! I have been checking your blog since Thanksgiving night like a gazillion times!!!!!!!
I was so sure I was having a girl and my husband was so sure we were having a boy. He was the only one (my parents, friends, and his family all thought it was a girl too!) He turned out to be right, so our little boy will be here at the end of March!
Oh, that’s just mean :)I am going to have to wait until the morning?
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! That means you totally know and you’re not telling us! Tell us!
I’m fairly new to your blog–I first came here a month or so ago via Young House Love and I’ve been lurking on and off since, but I thought I should delurk to say congratulations!
I’m expecting my first as well, and I can’t wait to find out whether it’s a boy or a girl. I can’t wait to find out what you’re having, either, so please tell!
Heather took the words out of my mouth, to feel for someone I’ve never met they joy I feel for you. This post brought tears to my eyes. You’re so genuine and true with your feelings–you have a beautiful spirit and are so open with yourself that it’s like we know you. Congratulations again!
oh name twin… you are so driving us all crazy….
tell us already!!!!!!
not nice suspense teaserer!
OMG!!! I want to know SOOOOOOOOO bad!!! Come on!!!
wow you are the Queen of tease!
You tease!
I know it’s been said before, but you have such a gift as a writer. That was beautiful.
Im guessing B-o-y! Tell us soon!!!
oh, come on!!!!! you can’t do that to us!!!!
Hmm.. I came to check if you had already done the “big reveal” but I see you haven’t.
Perhaps the little girl/ boy didn’t let him/ her self see?
Ahh spill the beans woman!!!!
The anticipation is killing me! I scrolled down this post solo slowly so I wouldn’t skip ahead, but you gave us nothing, Katie! Heather said what I was thinking too — I am so happy for you and glad for your joy. The way you write, I feel like I know you. Please put up your next post soon!
so cruel!!!! we wanna know!!! 🙂
You all are cracking me up.
And rest assured that this isn’t the first time I have been called a tease 🙂
Just so you can stop checking the blog – the grand reveal is scheduled for tomorrow morning at 8:40am.
or is it 9:00? 🙂
XO – Katie
Oh this is so wrong. I was watching biggest loser and thought “oh i bet Katie wrote what she’s having” so i run to my computer and got all excited to see your latest post. Although well written and sweet, I can’t wait to find out! haha I dont know you but I need to know. We should hang out sometime, so i dont feel like such a stalker.
Spill the beans Bower!!! We’ve gotta know!!
Btw, that was such a beautiful note. I can’t wait to feel all that some day. Congrats!!
My guess is GIRL. And Katie, you really are a tease. Great post. Can’t wait for the reveal.
you gotta be kidding me….. that was just plain mean!!!